Tuesday, January 05, 2010

Weight Watchers?

Yeah, I'm a weight watcher. I've watched it go up steadily for years. Truth is, I haven't cared much about my weight and the excess thereof. I love eating and have used it as reward for years.

Last night I joined Weight Watchers with my BFF Heather and my mom. It wasn't my idea, it was Heather's. But you know what? I'm glad she placed it on my heart. I think I'm ready. I say I THINK I'm ready because it's true - giving up food and its hold on my life is going to be very, very hard. But I've started wearing maternity tops (and sometimes even pants) because nothing else fits anymore. I've started hiding food and lying about how much I eat to James and other people. I've slowly come to the realization that something's gotta give.

About 6 weeks after the twins were born I was down to a low weight (for me, mind you, you'd probably fall over in dread) and was really surprised at how easy it had come off. I wasn't thinking that it was because I had NO TIME TO EAT that I was losing weight. But then I went right back to not paying attention again. I went right back to eating because food was there, not eating because our bodies need food for fuel. Since that time (that was only about 4.5 months ago) I've put on nearly 30 pounds. If I don't wake up soon I am going to be 350 pounds and not physically able to care for my children. Something's gotta give.

So I put this out there to keep me accountable. I've already screwed up today but I've got a *little* stress in my life right now and don't expect perfection from myself. It's day one of the rest of my life and I'll be danged if you tell me I won't ever have ice cream again. All things in moderation. I can live in this seemingly perfect little town and not have a perfect little body, but I can be perfectly content knowing that I am finally doing something that's good for ME!

4 comments:

Jen said...

Good for you! I'll tell you from experience that you can't use food for stress. I joined WW about 6 months before my mom died and it was a lifesaver to me. The best advice I can give you is to take it ONE MEAL/SNACK at a time. If you look too "big picture" it's overwhelming. PLAN PLAN PLAN. Seriously. After all 5 kiddos are asleep, plan your meals and snacks for the next day. GO TO MEETINGS. Don't think you can do this on your own~very few people have that discipline.

If you wanna chat more, FB me! :-) I'll be praying for you!

Mark and Valerie Brandt said...

Tena,my friend Mary is a success story of WW and she speaks so highly of it and now runs the meetings. The meetings are key because those are real people in your area keeping you accountable and being "there" for you in all circumstances, because they are "there" too. What a great experience this can be for your whole family!!! I am so proud of you!

Jana said...

Obviously I need to read your blog before I chat with you on FB, as you've covered everything here! :) Oh well. Anyway, I hope you use this space to write about WW in addition to your family because I know from experience that it helps to have a support group cheering you on, and you certainly have that in your readership.

Tarah said...

Way to go, you can do it! You have a lot of support.