Thursday, August 15, 2013

Something's missing...

God, I feel like you have betrayed me. I have trusted for so many years but now, every morning, I wake up just sad. Sad, all the time. I haven't been brave enough to share this with anyone until just now. I don't know how to reconcile how hurt I am with what I know about You from forever in my past. Right now you are far away and you are quiet. I don't need my friends and family to tell me I need to reach out to you - maybe you could throw me a bone now and again. I'd really like that joy that comes from deep within and the "peace that passes understanding" but for now, I feel completely empty inside, and it honestly feels like you don't care. I realize this is the only way I have communicated to you in several days, but I really am not sure what to do. I will keep on keeping on, as I always do, but something is missing and I have no idea what.

3 comments:

PrairieMom said...

Normal is missing.
And I'm here for you, remember that you are loved and appreciated by many....

Unknown said...

AuntSue
Oh it is almost impossible to feel God's love when our brain chemistry is all off and depression has set in. Please Please Please, see someone, hopefully they will find something that will raise your hope and lower your depression, and be sure to get some counseling as well. My heart aches for you. Please don't suffer anymore in silence. You and your family need outside help.

Tena said...

AuntSue - I would love to know more about you! Message me sometime!!