Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Postpartum or just depression?

Lots of you know I am a depression gal. Yeah, if you just knew me you'd think I was pulling your leg at that in my usual way but no, it's true. I struggle with it a lot.

I have bipolar disorder, diagnosed a few years ago when I couldn't explain why I yelled at a complete stranger in the street one day. Of course there were a few other things happening as well. A good psychiatrist saw what was happening and helped me piece it all together. I've been on meds for bipolar ever since (we won't talk about my one little stint of going off meds because I thought I was doing so well, but I have promised that will never happen again, and it won't).

But lately, I'm sad again. I'm not feeling the highs/lows of bipolar, just sad. Very sad. The kind of sad where it takes an effort to smile. I have talked to my doctor about it and we are working on some increase of meds - hateful that meds take so long to kick in. So we'll let it ride. I'm sharing because prayer can only help. I'm sharing so that depression isn't the untalked-about epidemic in our society.

5 comments:

Myssie said...

I'm praying Tena! ((((Big Hugs))))
Love ya!

Cindy said...

Praying for you! I agree that it shouldn't be un-talked about.

Jessica mommy to Alex/ RTS said...

Thinking about you!

Jana said...

I think you're right on--there's a stigma about depression and really any kind of mental or emotional illness. People need to share their struggles so they can help others know it's okay to be feeling the way they are, and that there is help to be found. I'm passionate about that. Don't let depression be the elephant in the living room!

Whew. Okay, off my soapbox. I'm so sorry you've been hit with this lately. Sometimes it really sneaks up on you, doesn't it? I'm thinking of and praying for you.

Terri H-E said...

Sorry, sister, it takes me ages to catch up on everyone. I'm thinking of you. Better?