God has been using one of my love languages (Facebook! hahahaha) to really get through to me lately. In the past days several people have shared things with me or shared things themselves that have spoken to me loud and clear. Here are two of them:
"I am continually at work in your life, even when you can see nothing happening. It’s easy for you to feel stuck in a situation you’d like to change because you can see only the present moment. But I look at the big picture—all the moments of your life—and I am doing more than you can imagine." -Jesus Today by Sarah Young, p. 302 (need to track down this book!!)
In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world. John16:33
I am really trying to be still and listen right now. It isn't easy, but it's something simple I can commit to.
Thursday, August 15, 2013
God, I feel like you have betrayed me. I have trusted for so many years but now, every morning, I wake up just sad. Sad, all the time. I haven't been brave enough to share this with anyone until just now. I don't know how to reconcile how hurt I am with what I know about You from forever in my past. Right now you are far away and you are quiet. I don't need my friends and family to tell me I need to reach out to you - maybe you could throw me a bone now and again. I'd really like that joy that comes from deep within and the "peace that passes understanding" but for now, I feel completely empty inside, and it honestly feels like you don't care. I realize this is the only way I have communicated to you in several days, but I really am not sure what to do. I will keep on keeping on, as I always do, but something is missing and I have no idea what.